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Mar. 1st, 2008


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In many ways they'll miss the good old days
Someday, someday
Yeah it hurts to say but I want you to stay
Sometimes, sometimes
When we was young ah man did we have fun
Always, always
Promises they break before they're made
Sometimes, sometimes

ahhh i find lyrics soo beautiful they know just how to put things so that you know exactly how you feel.

Jan. 6th, 2008



Once again, I am again back in depressing Waterloo. I got into our suite this morning. I cleaned and unpacked, now I am just alone and bored. I came back on Friday, but residence was locked. So I ended up hanging out with Chung and Angel for the entire day. Angel is a very pretty name and she was very nice! :) I wish my relationship with Mushfique would somehow grow into something Angel and Chung have. It is almost as if they are an old and married couple. I think its really cute.

School starts tomorrow and I still don't know what I'm going to do about my courses. I don't have Math 138  on my schedule yet, this really sucks. I'm thinking about  reading and looking through what courses I should take, I really want to take Fine 121 But I have no clue if they would let me take it here, since i dont have Fine 120, I guess I would see later. If I can't get into Fine121 I don't even know what i should take this semester... Hoping for the best never gets me anywhere these days. 

I've been recently talking to Andrew who is (Hugerice) from MS... god sometimes I just wish he'd shut up. He talks to me waaaaaay too much. Probably trying to get me to play on his rogue. blah If I knew he was going to talk to me soo much i should of never asked him for his account. This sucks.

Anyways I think I should go back to reading Blindness while waiting till the other arrive in loo. I'm craving for guitar hero right now. Haha -XP

Jan. 3rd, 2008



Everything was how it seems as I left it, as if frozen in time. I still refer to that place where my father would pick me up as the big fish head, even though it has had its name changed to ARTCUBE for more than a year. It's good to ask myself how I am once in awhile, because it really helps myself to pause, think and reflect upon the recent events that have occured. I recall life as though I have lived it for over twenty years the past three months... I've officially broken up with the person who I thought was my bestfriend and soulmate for the last 6 years. On the surface I felt no regrets, this surface has sunken and ascended is a new facade that has bore its shape by interlace and wrapped its silk-delicate features around and into a new. I would still like to think of him as a friend, otherwise everything we've done would have been in vain. On the surface, I was also happy ending such a relationship with him, I had something to think about at least another person who I thought showed affection even though I was fooled.
Regardless of my humiliating mistake, I also tricked myself into a false state of happiness because I thought I had friends that stood by me. I have been fooled yet again and have been robbed from greatly. When things are in its grimmest state of despair my roomate would peek over and say its'SOKay. Maybe for her they are, if only you could feel the emotions that have impaled me. Yet again, I feel that I have surpassed the stage of being emotionally deprived, where I have been left feeling no emotions. I've certainly reached a new destination of depression this fallen time around. Still I would be blankly staring at a grimace and a cheaply fake pasted smile and continue some chore...
Ex-boyfriend problems recently, note to self: never date a bestfriend and have them become best friends with you again. They know where to tear you and it hurts, soo much more.
I met up with Lei after work today, another first time in a long time. She was almost how I remebered. We talked over our tea lattes until we got kicked out and had to run to a bank to sit until the eleven-forty, when her mom would pick her up and drive her home. I bet she thinks I need to get over ESA. That has always been my one great flaw, I use too much of the past to fuel me through with friends that I have almost lost to air it seems...
As I went home that night I thought about the electricity that lit the pixels on the ARTCUBE sign.

Feb. 24th, 2006


So how was your day? ---- It was okay..

It all began today, which did not feel much like a Friday. I felt that in my heart I knew the reason to why it felt so. The previous day I made no effort in going to class, most of this week was filled with similar episodes. Although I had a reason for not attending there was feelings of guilt that existed deep within me. However, I enjoyed this entire day, I don’t know the reason why. But I suppose the fact that I had not expected much at all out of this day contributed to the enjoyment.

I discovered today of a male, that deemed my admiration in the past; had joined the army. I found myself truly shocked of this news, considering it has been quite sometime since I had last heard of his accomplishments, let alone his name linger amongst the tongues of my fellow classmates. Though, I am no longer obsessed nor do I have any more feelings for this man. Words-- “He shaved his head” from my colleague and news barrier rang in my head for the rest of the day’s periods.

The news did not upset me, nor did it have any emotional impact on myself. I had thought to myself and at lunch: Why ever would he do such thing? I suppose one possibility would be the attained attention from his peers. Somehow I cannot convince myself to believe that he wanted this.

At the end of school I found myself debating weather or not I should spend the rest of Friday with my boyfriend, Harry. It was a sunny Friday mid-afternoon when I got out of school, the familiar warmth that reminded me much of my previous summers. A rush of memories and liveliness of my summers was earlier brought up during art class. There was a presentation, followed by a movie. The movie featured a fellow classmate of mine, Christian who had over the summer gotten involved with a group that was painting a mural near the Lakeshore and Mimico area. I was envious to see what a well summer he had spent painting. But I could almost sympathize the feelings of free time and the beautiful summer humidity. I knew when the room started to break out into small chit chatter that everyone there could relate to the same feeling. It annoyed me greatly that these self-fish bastards would think only of themselves, and disrupted those around just so people could hear their personal stories. (C.A)

The Bus ride home was different, but I remember it just like any other Friday after school, when it still used to be a tradition of mine to be home on Fridays. It has occurred to me that I don’t go straight home after school anymore, but spend it with others. I have truly forgotten what it is to be like in a bus filled with people that all have one similar destination: Home.

When I got off the bus, I noticed the sky had begun to change and the warmth, which the day had once provided, had begun to fade. –So’s the Sun, but that was the last thing on my mind.

Feb. 22nd, 2006



My goals..I haven't had these things in a long time. Figures, I really need to be more organized. First step is to tidy up my room and everything that is around me. So I am more motivated to work and get things done. I would like to keep more checklists around too haha. Well Lets hope theres a strike because I'm not going to school tomorrow, and I seriously need to clean.

I feel very inspired, lots of ideas are floating all around. but I'm too lazy to grab hold of one sit down and work with it. Mainly becuase my reality is too messy, and I hate working in conditions like that. It makes me feel guilty.

Tomorrow I'm heading out with Lei to Kensington. School or no school, skipping anyways. Fun...

Feb. 10th, 2006



Today was fun I got pictures of Lei for my art thingy, Went with Lei to China town and curries to get my Canvas, I'm gonna Paint Lei meeeep! Lei and I were chilling with Harry's Pals, robin and Victor. Its pretty cool we had some korean food to fill our tummies. I'm soo full. Ha! I saw Harry today too.

I guess by not being home today was a nice day I made a lot og progress even though I wasnt home. Completing Missions makes Monica Happy.

Feb. 4th, 2006



I saw brokeback mountian with harry and lei cool cool.

katie are you happy? :p

Feb. 1st, 2006



At school, updates are fun. I wanna start blogging again, just dont have time. First thing I want to do before I start blogging agian is to make my journal look prettier. Then I will be happy blogging. =)

I haven't had much time for Maple Story, people are catching up. I don't think we're even top 6 anymore. We're gonna get kicked off the top 10 real soon.
Oh well what can you do?

I really want to play MS again I dont have the time for that too too much school work nowdays.

Jan. 16th, 2006




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Dec. 30th, 2005



Sorry guys for the lack of updates. heh, ;_; i hope you all had a wonderful X-mas, I need to catch up with all of you people LOL. Meh, well things have been alright with me. I haven't done much. But thats alright, everythings neutral. So yah, hehe well hop eyou all the best for this comming new year. I've been playing maple story a lot so if it looks like I've fallen off the face of earth. Find me on Maple stroy IGN: Laid or Lush :D

Bye Lovelies for now.

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